how have you been?

i've been asked that question quite a lot these days, and i think, "how have i been?" and i honestly say, "busy." but i'm really thinking, "well, i feel sad."

i miss being able to work on homework an hour before it's due and still get a good grade. these days--work done a week in advance still gets failing marks. X__X what can i say about that? dunno.

but anyway! as much as i look forward to working after i graduate, it'll be a pain--waking up early, not being able to take breaks when i want to, having to please 100 people on a daily basis, going home late. it's quite noticeable to see the stress building up. haha, some people have commented that a few friends have gained weight. they say nothing about me, but i think, "yes, i'm getting fat."

my days feel like 8-to-5 days. not that great. by the time i get home, i don't even want to look at my books. i'm not disciplined when it comes to studying, but i should be. XD

i don't feel so bad that things didn't turn out the way i wanted. but having friends who'll be there--to laugh and cry and argue with XD--is enough to make me happy.